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bantha_fodderPermit me to navel-gaze, half-asleep on my couch.
I am ridiculously multifannish. I have a lot of difficulty giving all of my time and devotion to just one fandom, and I have a hard time picking between them but if I was going to pick my top three, it would be Narnia, the Pretender and Dune. I can go back to the source material again and again and be blown away, no matter how many times I've read or seen it; I always discover something new; it never fails to cheer me. There's a comfort there, in all three of those, in how awesome I find them and how well I know them, and even if I didn't get to do all the fannish things, writing fic and making icons, I'd still love them and reacquaint myself all the time. Yesterday I read Neil Gaiman's The Problem of Susan for the first time, and I was filled with such unexpected longing (for the Narnia books), and thought of a million different things all at once.
Whenever a recs journal I admire (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
unfitforsociety, for example, or sarecs) makes a post about one of those three fandoms (Narnia, for the most part), my heart leaps a little, only to drop immediately afterwards when it's not something I've written that they're loving.
The Pretender and Dune are tiny, mostly dead fandoms, and until last year Narnia did not fare much better in terms of volume, and I've never expected to receive a million pieces of feedback for the things I've written. But I love Jarod and Miss Parker more than I love Kara and Lee, and I love the universe that Herbert created more than I love Rowling's universe, and so the few comments I receive when I write for the former means more to me than the latter, though I receive far more for BSG, and for HP. And I will always love HP, and I will always love BSG, but yes, I love my tiny fandoms more. And the words I write for them are words I spend more time crafting; I work harder and when I cut sentences and paragraphs the cuts hurt more, but when I'm done I love them ridiculous amounts.
All this is a very roundabout way of saying, I have made no secret in the past of the fact that I disapprove of anonymous memes in general, because I think that if you're willing to say something, you should be willing to put your face to it. However, yesterday I put my name down in QoT's journal, in order for nice things to be said to me. This was quite hypocritical of me! I have tried to host non-anonymous memes before, and perhaps it was me, or perhaps it was the lack of anonymity, but they didn't work.
The comments are here, if you're interested (you don't have to be).
I needed the loving, and it worked, because more than one person said something like, I want to read it even when I don't know the fandom; I just hope that when they read my fic they go, I want to learn more about that fandom, and then they do.
I'm sorry. I'll probably delete this in a bit, embarrassed by the rambling and the lack of point, but for now it can stay, because as embarrassed as I'll probably be later, these words are still true. I love my tiny fandoms, and as a result the feedback means more to me. And I wish more people loved my tiny fandoms.
I am ridiculously multifannish. I have a lot of difficulty giving all of my time and devotion to just one fandom, and I have a hard time picking between them but if I was going to pick my top three, it would be Narnia, the Pretender and Dune. I can go back to the source material again and again and be blown away, no matter how many times I've read or seen it; I always discover something new; it never fails to cheer me. There's a comfort there, in all three of those, in how awesome I find them and how well I know them, and even if I didn't get to do all the fannish things, writing fic and making icons, I'd still love them and reacquaint myself all the time. Yesterday I read Neil Gaiman's The Problem of Susan for the first time, and I was filled with such unexpected longing (for the Narnia books), and thought of a million different things all at once.
Whenever a recs journal I admire (
unfitforsociety, for example, or sarecs) makes a post about one of those three fandoms (Narnia, for the most part), my heart leaps a little, only to drop immediately afterwards when it's not something I've written that they're loving.The Pretender and Dune are tiny, mostly dead fandoms, and until last year Narnia did not fare much better in terms of volume, and I've never expected to receive a million pieces of feedback for the things I've written. But I love Jarod and Miss Parker more than I love Kara and Lee, and I love the universe that Herbert created more than I love Rowling's universe, and so the few comments I receive when I write for the former means more to me than the latter, though I receive far more for BSG, and for HP. And I will always love HP, and I will always love BSG, but yes, I love my tiny fandoms more. And the words I write for them are words I spend more time crafting; I work harder and when I cut sentences and paragraphs the cuts hurt more, but when I'm done I love them ridiculous amounts.
All this is a very roundabout way of saying, I have made no secret in the past of the fact that I disapprove of anonymous memes in general, because I think that if you're willing to say something, you should be willing to put your face to it. However, yesterday I put my name down in QoT's journal, in order for nice things to be said to me. This was quite hypocritical of me! I have tried to host non-anonymous memes before, and perhaps it was me, or perhaps it was the lack of anonymity, but they didn't work.
The comments are here, if you're interested (you don't have to be).
I needed the loving, and it worked, because more than one person said something like, I want to read it even when I don't know the fandom; I just hope that when they read my fic they go, I want to learn more about that fandom, and then they do.
I'm sorry. I'll probably delete this in a bit, embarrassed by the rambling and the lack of point, but for now it can stay, because as embarrassed as I'll probably be later, these words are still true. I love my tiny fandoms, and as a result the feedback means more to me. And I wish more people loved my tiny fandoms.
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Date: 2006-11-19 03:22 pm (UTC)I am happy to put my name to this comment, given that the anon meme has been comment-capped.
I really like the way you write. I have several times read fic that you've written in a fandom that I'm not familiar with, and the only reason that I haven't watched BSG or Dune yet is that I'm insanely busy and haven't had time - they're on my 'to watch' list, and I'm getting there (maybe even these holidays! I can hope!). For the fandoms I'm familiar with, your characters ring true, and I really like that. I like your picspams and your Pretender squee, and I'm sorry that I can't write fic to save my life and can't offer you fannish things in return.
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Date: 2006-11-19 03:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-11-26 12:24 am (UTC)Thank you, Vel.
I forget, sometimes, that you read this journal, because we so rarely speak out in the world.
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Date: 2006-11-19 03:33 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-11-26 12:25 am (UTC)Sometimes I wish more people loved it. Then I worry about badfic, and, well, I'm grateful.
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Date: 2006-11-19 04:39 pm (UTC)You have also brought me back to Dune. I've never been overwhelmed with awe by the canon, but I greatly enjoy your stories and you always, always make me wish I hadn't lost my Dune and CoD miniseries when all my DVDs disapeared in the move.
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Date: 2006-11-26 12:26 am (UTC)How do things disappear when you move? That's what I've always wondered.
Gremlins!
Date: 2006-11-30 05:05 am (UTC)I went through the same thing when I moved three years ago & still haven't found some stuff back! :-p
Anyways, HavocTheCat linked me over here, since I am a Pretender fan. :)
I am the Keeper of the Challenges (which I've been ignoring because my poor brain is full of other stuff - inc. school. :p) for the Pretender Challenges list on Yahell. I am also the fool on the throne, who realizes they are over their head and in desperate search of a webmaster to automate PretenderFanFiction.Net.
So, there are still some tP authors out there - Ginger is a good one, KB is another (even if she hasn't written anyhing tP in forever & a day!) and MMB.
I have tP 3rd season, since it was on sale at Wally World (Wal-Mart) last Feb., but I sadly don't own the other 3 seasons.
I need to corret that, since I am suffering MP withdrawal.... (I do have to wonder - in a snark contest, who would win? Her or Jack O'Neill? *g*)
Okay, reality calls - I have to go a document off my laptop & post it out, since it's got my clinic rotation for school on it. :p
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Date: 2006-11-19 09:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-11-26 12:27 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-11-19 10:36 pm (UTC)I don't get the attraction of the setting of the HP books. It just seems like a terrible, unaesthetic disaster to me. Dune is really interesting on the other hand, and the fact that the last three books just veer off into crazy nonsense makes it all the better. So I suppose I simply love one and despise the other.
The Gaiman thing's very cool. Possibly the coolest Gaiman thing I've seen.
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Date: 2006-11-26 12:30 am (UTC)I did enjoy the HP books at first, but it's reached the point where I can no longer read them. I didn't finish the most recent one, and it is partially because of the construction of the world (when I've seen it done so much better by other authors), but it's also because her writing style is something that I can't stand.
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Date: 2006-11-26 03:45 am (UTC)Gaiman to me is completely hit and miss. I think it's because he's mainly a guy who synthesises interesting material and adds a twist. Sometimes he does a great job, and sometimes he does a good job but not as good as the competition (e.g. American Gods, which I really liked, but which was still basically Tim-Powers-only-not-as-good). Don't know.
The HP books are blatantly not the best thing out there in children's fiction, even in the magical-world-meets-schoolday-highjinks subgenre. The recent couple are very badly written and are a shambles plot-wise. I feel sure the seventh will be the longest, most pointless, most self-serious, turgid piece of nonsense of the lot of them.
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Date: 2006-11-20 12:40 am (UTC)I own three copies of Dune myself, one for reading, one for the original cover and one for my set, and I know I'm a geek, but having new stories are so important to the readers. I don't know what to say, but I hope you keep writing, even if it's only for your love of Herbert, not ours.
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Date: 2006-11-26 12:32 am (UTC)You're right, that does make you a geek. :o) But I'm like that with my Narnia books: one set I have specifically because when you put all the binding together a picture of Cair Paravel appears.
I love Herbert, and I love the world he constructed. I've always got ideas for it, which probably stems from my love of his world, I suppose.
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Date: 2006-11-20 03:19 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2006-11-26 12:33 am (UTC)